Stress...

No much can get to me...but money always stresses me out. Not because use a lot of it...because i make so little. And don't need that much...i just want enough to do the things i want to do in life...well except buying a house. (The prospects of buying a house really sucks right now...and i don't think i want to "owe myself out of existence"). Right now just getting started on school is a problem...i worked all summer on these crummy jobs that don't pay much and now i'm looking at bearly making it for the first month...its always the first month. As soon as you pay tuition ($1700), rent ($450 + deposit $200), and books ($200), and of course you set you self with a pretty good job you'll be fine. But their is always something that come up...the work i was at hold the check for one month...that means i'm not getting my money until Sept 30 (Approx, $1,300)...which is 15 days after the final date to pay for tuition.

So what my briliant partner advised me to do is to write a check on Sept 15 and hope my the time they clear it up and maybe threaten me it will be the Sept. 30...and then i will be able to pay them in full...in other words buy my time (apparently she has had some expereince in loop holes). I don't like the idea just because two weeks is such a long time, if it was one week then i think it might work...but what i'm hoping for is that the campus collector (who by the way are brutal, i've had some hard negociation with them..i guess they deal with these things all the time and they try to scare the student) will not want to drop my classes and cut me some slack...i've got circomstance on my side. It the best option i've got.

The other money is coming from my new job i should be getting about $400 on sept. 7 and the same on the 23rd...if i can get past september i should be good. I arranged it with my landlord to pay him on the 7th...but what he doesn't know is that i won't have the deposit...again circomstance..i'll be in the room already...he can't take me out then. I've given the deposit in payment with him before...but he's a grauch (SP??)...so you have to work him...in a good way of course.

So that is my thing right now...classes are nice i just went to my first class and it seems like is going to be a good one...you can always tell from the beginning if the class is going to cool. I have four classes tomorrow it's my longest day...i'm looking foward to them.

Monday and tuesday miguel ( a good friend of mine) and i went Mt. biking by the los gatos reseviour...that was one of the coolest things i have done ever...especially the coming down. We went really high...i didn't think you could go that high on the bike...he has these special mt. bikes. The next day he took me to this easier course at this park in sanjo...much better...not so high but still very difficult. I'm thinking i might get into mountain biking...he says he might be selling one of the his bikes, so we'll see what happens. He was telling me that the snow resorts are doing mt. bikes lifts when their is no snow...so you can ride up and come down the mountain on the bike...down hill biking is really cool too. I'm not expereinced and don't have the equipment but i think i want to try it. I think it that fine line of being safe and the potential of getting hurts that bring up the adrenaline...it like the "flight" part of the "fight or flight" expereince but in a some what controled environment.

I just talked to my advisor and i don't have to take one of the classes that i thought i need to take...so i'm only taking 15 units....which is good, cuz i was going to go crazy with 18 units.

My compadres and my god-daughter is in sanjo...i'm happy i'm going my good friend here. Also, my god-daughter...she it growning to fast...she is learning english. She is 3 years old and she english like my mom...it sound really cute. She is really tring though. I'm staying with them until sunday, which is when my room is going to be ready they are changing the carpet....things are looking good...well...almost...if they don't drop my classes on the 16 then i should be fine.

If they give me an altumative i'm going to have to do a massive phone-a-thon...lets hope it doesn't get to that point.

From the ivory tower of San Pepe State University in the jungle of silicon valley...signing off...Amado Guererro (pen name of a pinoy poet)